I hate the cold weather when there is no snow and so I need your help in getting a White Christmas. Make sure it snows in SLC! I just booked my tickets and I will be home for Christmas! I fly in late night on the 23rd and leave January 3rd. Sure lots of that time will be with Family, but someof it will be with friends so make sure it snows! If you are as busy as I am this season, perhaps I will see you at Scott's MoHo Party, I know I will be there.
Enjoy this video because I WILL be home for Christmas!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFGfCn5rKIM&feature=related
In C.S. Lewis’ last Chronicle of Narnia he weaves a story about the end of the world and the world to come. This chronicle opens with two characters, an Ape named Shift who is wise, cunning, manipulative and lazy & his friend Puzzle, a Donkey who is not that bright, malleable, easily depressed, and gullible. Shift and Puzzle find the skin of a lion and Shift hatches a plan so that he won’t have to work for bananas ever again. He dresses Puzzle up as a lion and convinces Puzzle that his job, nay his duty is to appear as Aslan to the people.
The story is far more involved than this of course, but what is important is that Puzzle listened to Shift instead of what he knew to be true. Puzzle knew he was a Donkey and not a lion and yet he still continued on in the disguise because he was told that it would make things better. Towards the end of the book, the following is written:
"I see now," said Puzzle, "that I really have been a very bad donkey. I ought never to have listened to Shift. I never thought things like this would begin to happen."I mention this chronicle because it reminds me of what I read today and the truth that it bore to me. I came across Paul’s writings on circumcision. In 1 Corinthians 7, Paul uses circumcision to teach them a lesson and to expound upon church policy. He states:
“18 Is any man called being circumcised? let him not become uncircumcised. Is any called in uncircumcision? let him not be circumcised.Paul states that the important thing isn’t whether you are circumcised or not, but whether, in being called to be circumcised you changed your circumcision status or not. Verse 20 “Let every man abide in the same calling wherein he was called.” Paul is expounding truth that I feel Lewis alluded to successfully. We each have been called to divine paths, paths that for us may be different from someone with the same trials. It is our duty, not to follow what others tell us, what Shift whispers and coerces us to do, but instead to instead listen to our own hearts and souls and more importantly what the Spirit of God calls us to do.
19 Circumcision is nothing, and uncircumcision is nothing, but the keeping of the commandments of God.”
It is our responsibility to discover that call and be worthy to hear it. For some of us that may be a call towards celibacy, for others to find a partner, for others still, to find a wife. I do not believe that it is our place to delegate what others should do, to tell others what they are called to be. We must merely accept our own calling, much as we would from a Bishop, and magnify it rather than shrink from it.

The scriptures are filled with many whom have been called to specific tasks, some obeyed and were blessed like the Sons of Mosiah, others ignored the call and after a lesson repented like Jonah.
I feel that we need a lot fewer groups telling us how we have been called and instead need groups that uplift us in the calling of the Lord whatever it may be. The time is fast approaching when hate will be abhorred & love and support truly embraced. We can, each day help that day of love by answering our call to build each other up in our endeavors instead of focusing on why our own personal answer is right for all. We must answer the call and go further up and further in.
Not that many of you are planning on getting me Christmas gifts, but some of you who read my blog are family and so I am making this wish-list for Christmas: 25 things I want for Christmas (that money can buy). Sure I would like World Peace, Equality, Total Familial Acceptance, a Boyfriend, an uber expensive Digital XLR camera and of course "an Official Red Ryder Carbine-Action Two-Hundred-Shot Range Model Air Rifle with a compass in the stock, and this thing which tells time," but I have kept things relatively inexpensive and I believe everything but one can be found for under $50 and most for about $30. Everything has been alphabetized and I would be blessed if I got any of them.
25 things I want for Christmas
1. Books
a. Everything is Misscilaneous - http://www.amazon.com/Everything-Miscellaneous-Power-Digital-Disorder/dp/0805080430
b. Millennial Makeover - http://www.amazon.com/Millennial-Makeover-Myspace-American-Politics/dp/0813543010/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1198174446&sr=8-1
c. My name is Asher Lev - http://www.amazon.com/Name-Asher-Lev-Chaim-Potok/dp/1400031044
d. Paradise Lost - http://www.amazon.com/Paradise-Lost-Penguin-Classics-Milton/dp/0140424393
e. Plugged In: The Gen. Y guide to Thriving at Work - http://www.amazon.com/Plugged-Generation-Guide-Thriving-Work/dp/1422120600/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1223667813&sr=1-1
f. The Question of God: CS Lewis and Sigmund Freud - http://www.amazon.com/Question-God-Sigmund-Debate-Meaning/dp/074324785X
g. The Rise of Mr. Ponzi - http://site.despair.com/blog/2009/11/03/meet-mr-ponzi-despair-releases-charles-ponzis-1936-autobiography/
h. The Year of Living Biblically - http://www.amazon.com/Year-Living-Biblically-Literally-Possible/dp/0743291476
2. Clothing
a. Hats
i. High Quality hats, like a fedora or a newsboy. NOT a baseball Cap or a cowboy hat (I have those)
b. T-shirts
i. GM - http://despair.com/gomo.html
ii. Google Skynet - http://www.bustedtees.com/Skynet
iii. Hyrule Fencing Club - http://www.bustedtees.com/hyrulefencingzelda
iv. Irony - http://despair.com/irony.html
v. Legalize it - http://www.bustedtees.com/legalizeit
vi. Linked - http://www.splitreason.com/product/432
vii. LMAO - http://www.bustedtees.com/LMAO
viii. Made in the USA: By Robots - http://despair.com/madeinusa.html
ix. Smile - http://www.bustedtees.com/smile
c. Outerwear
i. Good pair of leather gloves for to keep warm and look sharp
ii. I <3 href="http://www.cafepress.com/iclubseals.63494175">http://www.cafepress.com/iclubseals.63494175
d. Socks
i. Of the dress variety. One can never have too many
3. Technology
a. Backup Storage - http://www.bestbuy.com/site/Western+Digital+-+My+Passport+Essential+250GB+External+USB+2.0+Portable+Hard+Drive+-+Black/9522251.p?id=1218118265547&skuId=9522251
b. Shure iPhone adapter - http://store.shure.com/store/shure/DisplayProductDetailsPage/productID.105498400
4. Thoughtful
i. A classic looking book transformed into a hidey-hole as shown here: http://how2dostuff.blogspot.com/2006/02/how-to-make-secret-hollow-book.html
A year ago I tried to take my own life because of the tempest raging within my soul. I was feeling like whichever path I chose nearly half of who I was would die. I got myself so wrapped up that I figured; "Well if half of me has to die and still not have an answer, why not sacrifice my entire self and KNOW the truth that lies on the other side of the veil."
I was so frustrated with this thought that I decided to dull the pain with some Lortab I had from my Wisdom Teeth Removal. Luckily I had a good roommate and a caring friend on the phone who got me to a hospital and into a psych evaluation.
If you are reading this and you feel on the verge of suicide I want to let you know that it does get better... so much better, just keep pushing on one day at a time and when you need support or you feel like you might end it, please call a friend, call a family member, or call the Trevor Project. They love you and can help you realize that living is worth it.
The Trevor Project is the leading national organization focused on crisis and suicide prevention efforts among lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and questioning (LGBTQ) youth. If you or a friend are feeling lost or alone, call The Trevor Helpline (866.4.U.TREVOR), 24 hours a day, seven days a week
One of the few things I remember from Apollo 13 that has stuck with me all these years is the following scene.
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It always stuck with me because I remember thinking “How preposterous to fit a square peg into a round hole, the parts just don’t fit.”
I don’t remember much else from that movie, but needless to say, it has stuck with me and recently I thought about that more and realized… I am the square peg. Some people try to convince me that I am round, some people have tried to force me to be round, and some think I should find a square hole. Each of these views comes from a person who has found something that works for them, but I recognize that I am unique and there may not be “one” answer for every square peg.
Ok I am rambling, but indulge me a bit further on another tangent, I swear I will pull it together at the end … I always do.
While reading C.S. Lewis the other day I recalled the myth of Procrustes. He was the smith who would put travelers in his bed and make them fit it. If they were too small he would hammer them out to fit. If they were too big, then he might chop them down a size. In a way, he was making square pegs round.
I have thought about our sexuality and what happens to it after we die a lot lately because nothing seemed to fit for me (imagine that!) When I looked at all these pieces though it came together for me and I want to share that with you here. You see, some people say that our sexuality is a mortal imperfection that will be made perfect in the life to come, in opposition to that, many have said “To Hell with that, I will keep who I am, thank-you very much.”
We are told that in the next life we will be made perfect, if perfection is an eternal absolute, then wouldn’t we all become the same? Wouldn’t we become someone completely different from who we are? Doesn’t the Christian concept of a “Body of Christ” make more sense in that light? Is Christ, our eternal judge, truly holding us to the standard of a Procrustean bed and using this life to refine us into this model of perfection? Even if it means completely changing us from who we are and what makes us, as his brothers and sisters whom He knows by name, who we are? Or is He the one who fits us to the right place where we were built to be a organs in the gospel of Christ?
I have always had trouble with this notion, but have now found my personal answer. I firmly believe that we may have our own personal answers and so I will wait to disclose mine until I hear from you about yours.
Are you are going to be hammered into a round hole, become round or find the square hole meant for you? Let me know.
This week we saw the 20th Anniversary of a united
Germany due to the fall of the Berlin Wall. Previously I discussed how that was a symbolic need for spirituality and sexuality to tear down the wall that separates them and to unite together in our similarities rather than live divided. This week we also saw the church throw its support behind the SLC Anti-discrimination ordinance. In the past few days I have heard several arguments about how this would have passed otherwise, that this reflects no change in Church Policy, that it is a PR stunt. Frankly I don’t care why so long as this milestone is the trailhead to a broader path of acceptance.
However I look at the messages about this and I see two distinct groups offering messages that I honestly am repulsed by. I have kept my peace about it for a few days and even wrote this 2 days ago before revisiting and tempering myself. As I examined the messages and the motives behind them it struck me why the views were abhorrent to me. They have been blinded and no longer care about the issue at hand, the issue that they had been previously fighting for, but instead, now they are fighting against the other side even to the detriment of their original cause. They are using hateful rhetoric to embolden their side and are galvanizing their opposition.
On one side you have a group who started out tying to maintain a traditional view of marriage who now appear so disgusted with homosexuals that they are becoming much like the Westboro Baptist Church who are just shy of wanting to round up the Gays and have them shot.
On the other hand you have a group who started out fighting for equal rights including marriage who now appear so embittered at the church that they are sounding like a Missouri Mob and are calling for the end of the Mormon Church as it presently stands.
These mindsets enrage me because they are spewing propaganda, hate, and malice into the public arena much like a few children throwing a temper tantrum. Except this tantrum doesn’t just get on my nerves, it is actively endangering my ability to gain rights and happiness. This tantrum needs have a time out because this form of extremism will never lead to either side getting anything done except by bloodshed and I feel the need to bring some common sense and reality to both sides.
It wasn’t extremists that United Germany, it wasn’t out of hate that the Civil Rights movement succeeded, it wasn’t out of anger or disgust that the Lamanites were defeated by Captain Moroni, and it wasn’t extremism that founded a pluralistic nation designed for Life, Liberty, the Pursuit of Happiness with freedoms of Religion and Speech. It was compromise that forged America, the defense of Liberty that repelled the Lamanites, passionate non-violence that saw the Dream fulfilled and moderation that tore down the wall.I call for rational minds to recognize the Church’s involvement in the SLC ordinance for what it is. It is a change of course and pace for the Church. It is a step closer towards Equality for LGBT people. Finally it is one brick less in the wall that divides us, that divides spirituality and sexuality. Let us band together to take another step, remove another brick, form another compromise and put the extremists in a well deserved “Time Out!”
Labels: Activism, Balance, Current Events, Politics, The Church
